Saturday, November 03, 2012

Fire and Ice

My life changed, just a bit more, this weekend. I look forward every year to my four days at the Oklahoma Arts Institute. I haven't felt well. I hurt, and I ache, and I am tired. The fatigue that comes with an autoimmune disorder is impossible to explain. Thursday I left for Quartz Mountain and yesterday I came home. 

It was too hard.

The mind games I had to play with myself were exhausting me to the point of tears. The pep-talks in the mirror became hollow. 

I couldn't keep it up and I left. 

The fires in my joints slowly burn and smolder. In the morning, the fires are cold, the pain is like ice, dry and as hard as diamonds. I feel like I crack as I try to move. 


Sunday, September 23, 2012

Artist Girl turns Seventeen




I stopped comparing my life to Hannah's a long time ago. 

Birthday dinner
Her trajectory veers nowhere close to mine and I rejoice. 

Mr. Dumbles insisted on joining in.
She has been solidly entrenched in her teenage years for awhile now, but not like any teenager I know.


This year I started to see and hear the faintest hints of an adult woman slipping through her words, formulating in her grace.




But when she opened her gifts, she stated loudly, "I plan to open my presents like an eight year old every year now!"


So each year, I can look forward to a glimpse of the eight year old. 


Hello young woman.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

The Artist's Summer...

Older daughter has had a busy summer, not all of it good. Poor girl has had some toe issues and is recovering from minor surgery on her big toe.  She'll be good to go for the start of school next month.

She completed and passed Driver's Ed. With some more practice, she might get licensed this spring. She did get her permit,



and that meant going to Stillwater



which means a stop at Eskimo Joe's. Yum!



For the last few weeks I have been taking her to Edmond for art classes. She likes it, even though all the other students are adults. She hasn't learned anything that she already knows, but is enjoying the time to just paint and be with other artists. 

Her talent and knowledge still delights me. 


Who knew this 



would eventually be this?

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

The other shoe...


Since March, I meet with a trainer twice a week. 

Since June, I walk/run with Couch-2-5-K two to three times a week. 

I'm feeling stronger and healthier. Methotrexate takes one, sometimes two, days from me because of side effects, but it gives me five to six days of movement and every day is relatively pain free. 

But, every day I workout I know it might be the last. My new med regime won't always work. 

The other shoe dangles just over my head, waiting to drop.  

Friday, July 13, 2012

Cute Little Lemon, Coconut Cakes for a Girls' Lunch

Or how I worked so hard on this little treat and forgot to give it to my friends.



I had some gals over for a lunch yesterday and we had a really nice visit. We lunched on sandwiches, salad, and spent some time in the pool. I make these little cakes to send home with them, but forgot about them until the last guest left, so she got her cake. 



Oh well, next time I will do better. 

I did want to share how I put these together. Of course my inspiration was from Pinterest, where all good ideas come from these days.


The first thing I did was cover these plastic soup spoons. You can use forks, but I loved the roundness of these spoons. Like I said, I was inspired by Pinterest, but all the cake tutorials I found had spoons or forks tied to the jar, but they were not covered. Since I planned to send the cakes home, I felt it best to cover them. 


I used these snack size bags to cover the spoons.


I cut them in half.


Then I cut the Ziploc part off.  I simply put them over the spoons and secured them with a twist tie.


You'll need four of these sweet little jars. You can use any jar, but I loved these ones. 


Cut a lemon in half. You'll need very little. I used the other half in a dressing for the salad I made for lunch.


Other things you will need: Homemade or canned frosting. Coconut, the frozen kind is so much better than what you will find on the shelf. You'll need a pound cake. I bought the family size.


Cut the cake about the diameter of the jar.


Then slice it fairly thin.


Use a lid to cut a round of cake. Sorry for the blurry pic! This tutorial stuff is harder than it looks!


Place the cake in the bottom of your sweet little jar.


Because the opening of the jar is smaller than the bottom, you'll need to scootchy the cake in. If it breaks apart a bit, that is ok, you can moosh it together.


Squeeze a few drops of lemon juice on the cake. I did not use a lot, just enough to give the cake a hint of lemon. If you're a boozer, you could actually use some type of liquor to give it a different flavor.

Break out the frosting and pipe or spread a layer on top of the cake.


 For the top layer, you need to cut the cake into quarters.


 When you quarter a slice for the top layer, trim one side like this.


Shimmy the pieces in


By this time the kids are bothering you for cake. They will ask you if you're making some for them and you will tell them, over and over, "No, these are for my girlfriends!" 




You'll have lots of scraps. Feed them to your children for breakfast. I might have done that. 


Your children will sob that you are a mean mommy because you are not making little cakes for them, but they will take their cake scraps and leave you alone to finish.






Also, I may or may not have frosted some for my own breakfast.



Squeeze a bit more lemon juice on the top layer and then frost.


Sprinkle with coconut and garnish with a little wedge of lemon.


Use a cutie bug font to label the jar. Tie the spoon to the jar and even though your children are mad at you, have them help you hold the raffia while you tie the knots.


Finally, forget to give the cakes to your friends after the lunch and give them to your children for dessert after dinner. Convince yourself they are not smirking as they eat the cakes. 

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

San Antonio

Our plan for vacation this year was a road trip west, but we had to adjust a bit to allow for Noodle's recovery from mono. 

We chose San Antonio and spent a few days, at a very leisurely pace, enjoying a short, easy vacation. 

We spent day one on the road. After checking into our hotel, we found the closest Mexican place and had a very good meal. It was slightly different from Oklahoma style Tex-Mex, but we really liked it!

My dinner at Papasitas. I ordered a three-taco place and had devoured two before I remembered to take a picture!

 The next day we visited the Alamo, San Antonio's lovely Riverwalk (complete with boat ride), and had lunch at a British Pub. My two England-crazed daughters were thrilled! 


In front of the Alamo. That girl in the background insisted on photo bombing all my Alamo shots!
The famous Riverwalk


There are some lovely Gardens around the Alamo. we saw these Koi there and they were freaking huge!  I'd say about  2 2 1/2 feet long.

Gorgeous mural!

"I can't believe I'm in a British Pub and I'm going to order Fish and Chips!!!"


River boat cruise...

 The next day we braved Sea World. We did not go on any rides and we took our time, rest and rehydrating often.


Dolphin feeding


Mama sea lion and her baby.

The girls got to feed these greedy guys!

The main reason for going to Sea World was to meet this guy. We got to visit the penguin habitat, learn how they're fed, meet with their caretakers, and actually pet penguins. It was thrilling, it really was. 



This is mated pair. They mate for life. 
 Our last day was spent on the road again.



All in all it was a nice little trip. We went at the right time, before it gets too busy and too hot. There were just the right amount of people, but no real crowds. Sea World was busy, of course, but not overly so. 

I definitely recommend a visit!